I have struggled with this very thing a lot of my life. Even tonight.
There are some things though we need to understand though before we let this thought come into our mind.
- Jesus loved us enough to die for us (Romans 5:8 explains this)
Since Jesus loved us, each one of us, (that includes you) enough to die on the cross for us, an agonizing and extremely painful death, then it means He loves us more than we can imagine.
Think about it, do you have enough love for someone that you would do what Jesus did for them? Neither do I.
Bless you and I pray that Jesus will help and comfort you today!
Romans 5:8 (KJV)
8 But God commendeth his love toward us, in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us.